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Thursday, 04 February 2010

  • Currently
    Funhouse
    By Pink
    Glitter In The Air
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    three feet thick;

    i'm ready to embrace this, i'm ready for repair. i've got so many layers left by amateur painters who covered
over what was there. i stuffed myself sick on your memory and the beautiful mess we'd made, but i'm so tired of being inspired only when things slip away. they told me time would strip it all free and leave me bone
dry, they told me time would strip it all free but i'm no better than when i left here the first time, i'm ready to erase this, i'm ready to begin. spent myself trying to change all the beauty we d made just to want it all back again. and with the clouds moving in, this hardly looks like the same moon, and with the leaves all gone the trees that once stood strong now look pinched and cruel.

    Yeah, we all flirt with the tiniest notion of self conclusion in one simplified motion. See, the trick is that you are never supposed to act on it, no matter how unbearable the misery gets.

    There are worse ways for a guy to spend his time than to sit and think of you. I think I'd marry you. Just your smile leaves me satisfied, though you're not mine. So for the rest of my life, I'm gonna search for someone just like you.

    We cheerfully assume that in some mystic way love conquers all, all that good outweighs evil in the just balances of the universe and that at the eleventh hour, something gloriously triumphant will prevent the worst before it happens.

    "The worst drugs are as bad as anybody's told you. It's just a dumb trip, which I can't condemn people if they get into it, because one gets into it for one's own personal, social, emotional reasons. It's something to be avoided if one can help it."

    inside the snow globe on my father's desk, there was a penguin 
wearing a red-and-white-striped scarf. when i was little my father 
would pull me into his lap and reach for the snow globe. he would 
turn it over, letting all the snow collect on the top, then quickly invert 
it. the two of us watched the snow fall gently around the penguin. 
the penguin was alone in there, i thought, and i worried for him. 
when i told my father this, he said, "don't worry, susie; he has a 
nice life. he's trapped inside a perfect world.'

    And everybody knows the way I walk and knows the way I talk 
and knows the way I feel about you. It's all a bunch of shit and 
there's nothing to do around here. It's totally fucked up, I'm totally 
fucked up. Wish you were here.

    I want a new drug, one that won't make me sick, one that won't 
make me crash my car or make me feel three feet thick. I want 
a new drug, one that won't hurt my head, one that won't make my 
mouth too dry or make my eyes too red. One that won't make me 
nervous, wonderin' what to do, one that makes me feel like I feel 
when I'm with you, when I'm alone with you.

    I want to fall between the creases inside your palms, or slip along the curve of your lips. And I don't mean this in a romantic way, I don't mean I want your lips on mine, I don't mean for you to touch me, I don't mean that I love you with every bit of myself. I just mean that you are something different, something strange, something new

    Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does he give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does he give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does he give them opportunities to love each other?

     And I felt like my heart had been so thoroughly and irreparably broken that there could be no real joy again, that at best there might eventually be a little contentment. Everyone wanted me to get help and rejoin life, pick up the pieces and move on, and I tried to, I wanted to, but I just had to lie in the mud with my arms wrapped around myself, eyes closed, grieving, until I didn’t have to anymore.

    I want to bust the world wide open the way you do when you're filled with youth. i want to engage with lovers and people and fellow cops. i want to be physical and i also want to ask the big questions. i want to taste the tastes and fix the problems. i want to run headlong into chaos and bad guys and darkness and friends and fun and laugh, laugh, laugh. i want to be the best friend and i want to be the greatest aunt and the most complicated daughter. i want to be the mystery in the room and i want to be known.

    Home. The dictionary defines it as both a place of origin and a goal or destination. & the storm? The storm was all lost in my mind. Or as the poet Dante put it: In the middle of the journey of my life, I found myself in a dark wood, for I had lost the right path. Eventually I would find the right path, but in the most unlikely place

    So I guess my heart is going back on the shelf for awhile and i'm going to try to be a stronger person. I'm not going to be made a victim in this situation, but I hate myself for being so weak. I just want to be somebody that someone is proud of. I just want to be able to defend myself without secretly agreeing with whoever is insulting me. Because right now, I do. I agree with every word

    When you're at the top, remember what it felt like at the bottom. When you're at the bottom, remember what it felt like at the top. Good doesn't last forever.. but neither does bad.

    Hate is just a word for someone you love, but no longer believe in.

    it's only half past the point of no return. the tip of the iceberg. the sun before the burn. the thunder before the lightning. the breath before the phrase. have you ever felt this way? it's only half past the point of oblivion. the hourglass on the table. the walk before the run. the breath before the kiss and the fear before the flames. have you ever felt this way? have you ever wished for an endless night? Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight. Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?

    the places that i go are never there, nostalgia just isn't the same anymore.

    Perfection is defined when your heart beats next to mine, and time stands still for us.
My hand in your hair, and yours on my chest. Moments with you are my lifes best.
We crossed paths for a reason, the planets aligned in that particular season.
Its clear to me that we'll eventually be inseparable.

    You’re not the breath I breathe, just the sweet scent that I enjoy. You’re not the sights I see, just the most beautiful of them. You’re not the water I drink, just the flavor that makes it taste so good. You’re not the ground I walk on, just the partner I sometimes lean on. You’re not the blood in my veins, just what makes it burn so sweetly. You’re not my life, just the one I want to spend it with. You’re not my world, just the best thing in it.

    Sometimes you've just got to give yourself what you wish someone else would give you.

    Every bad situation will have something positive. Even a dead clock shows the correct time twice a day.

    i wish we could have worked it out. i wish i didn't have these doubts. i wish i didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now. i wish i didn't know inside that it won't work out for you and i. i wish that i could stop this wishing and just say my last goodbye.

    As the door swings closed tonight for the last time I will be taking little tangible with me....I will nonetheless carry out a mind full of memories and a heart full of feelings.  Time may dim the words that have been spoken, but I will forever remember how each of you made me feel.  Life really is about relationships.  I leave richly ladened.


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Sunday, 31 January 2010

  • Currently
    Lost: The Complete Fifth Season
    By Matthew Fox, Evangeline Lilly, Naveen Andrews, Henry Ian Cusick, Terry O'Quinn
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    the space between;

    the way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost

    All I ask is one thing, and I’m asking this particularly of young people: please don’t be cynical. I hate cynicism, for the record, it’s my least favorite quality and it doesn’t lead anywhere. Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get. But if you work really hard and you’re kind, amazing things will happen.

    Hypothetically, if you were point A, and I were point B; we would be frantically melting into one massive point that could overcome anything.

    She asked him, what kind of wedding would you want? He replied, the one that would make you my wife.
    
I used to be a superhero; no one could touch me, not even myself. You are like a phone booth I somehow stumbled into, and now look at me - I am just like everyone else.

    So, sure, I could just close my eyes. Yeah, sure, trace and memorize but can you go back once you know?

    Human skin can be hard to live in, you’ll feel better in the morning.

    When you don't want to let someone go, remember they were never really yours to give away in the first place.

    Most people would think that this was the time to give up. To lie it all down and pretend like it never happened. But somewhere along the line you’re going to remember. And in that very moment, you’ll sit down and you’ll smile. Because knowing that you had it sure beats the hell out of wishing that you did.

    "The bad news is, your choices and intentions,
    some people and places, those nights spent
    awake and all you've done, can lead you to the
    bottom of the pit. The good news is, thi s wouldn't
    be the first time someone's crawled, tooth and
    nail, out of hell."

    There is no mistaking love. You feel it in your heart.
    Love really is everything it's cracked up to be.
    It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking
    everything for. And, the trouble is, if you don't risk
    anything, you risk even more.

    the flames and smoke climbed out of every window
    and disappeared with everything that you held dear.
    and you shed not a single tear for the things that
    you didn't need, because you knew you were finally free.

    The world is a looking-glass, and gives back to every man the reflection of his own face. Frown at it, and it will in turn look sourly upon you; laugh at it and with it, and it is a jolly kind companion; and so let all young persons take their choice.

    "would you give it all up? could you give it all up? if i promise to you boy that i'll never talk again and i'll never love again and i'll never write a song, no i won't even sing along"

    Sometimes you’re further than the moon. Sometimes you’re closer than my skin.

    Concentration is the secret of strength in politics, in war, in trade, in short, in all the management of human affairs.

    The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man.

    Ambition is the path to success. Persistence is the vehicle you arrive in.

    True love is not so much a matter of romance as it is a matter of anxious concern for the well-being of one's companion."


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Tuesday, 26 January 2010

  • dead before the ship even sank;;

    i wish you were my homework cause then i'd be doing you on the kitchen table

    "The difference between physical attraction and love, is the ability to see the same person, at their best, at their worst, and still desire without one false step."

    Don't follow something you really mean with "just kidding" to make things less awkward. Make someone stand there and fidget around without knowing what to say. Because no matter how they react, you put yourself out there. Laid it on the table. Poured out your soul.

    that's a long drive for someone with nothing to think about.

    i am flawed but i am cleaning up so well. i am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself.

    you stood at your door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me like you meant it.

    You're the face I see here in the crowd, and the beating of my heart moves faster now. You're always on my mind, every minute of the day and I'm hanging onto every word you say.

    
When I look to my left, see his sun-tanned hands; his muddy river hair, and his thousand-acre plans, I'm all shook up like a quarter in a can, isn't life sweet in the passenger seat? I daydream of me and a cold cotton pillow and the feel of his skin. The windowsill smiles and before I know it, I'm miles away sitting next to him. We're shifting those gears; baby, one, two, three, then he shifts those ocean eyes back at me. I couldn't imagine a moment any better than this. Then we kissed

    You're not lost. You are the sky. Your parts move and now, never rust. You are burning wheels and a turning world. You are the wind in silver hair. This is our road. I am a map to you.

    Your life, little girl, is an empty page that men will want to write on.

    And if you look a little closer, you'll see that if a person believes that life is terrible, they’ll constantly look for proof of this, to confirm their view of the world. They’ll find quotes and situations and events in their life and magnify them a hundred times. If a person believes that life is wonderful, they’ll look for the corresponding signage and behave in a similar manner to the previous person with their view of the world. Often, this is the same person on different days of the week.

    Take a broken girl, treat her like a famous princess. Give her the best seats in the house. Buy her coffee and cigarettes for the coming down, books and bathroom things for the days ahead. Tell her something true when all she's known are lies. Tell her God loves her. Tell her about forgiveness, the possibility of freedom. Tell her she was made to dance in white dresses. All these things are true.

    "Was insanity just a matter of dropping the act?"

    For every moment you waste, there's another right
    behind it to take it's place. Cause life goes on when
     it ain't so sweet. Don't give up on it, get back
    on your feet. You can take another breath you
    gon' be okay. Just smile, forget yesterday.

    love is like breathing. you take it in and you let it out. it's a necessity, a demand from the soul. without it, we slowly but surely would cease to exist.

    We were dead before the ship even sank.

    You held up your hand, curled your fingers in and said, "This is how big your heart is. As big as a fist." I held up my hand, closed it over yours and said, "No. My heart will always be bigger than your fist."

    I haven't lost my morals. I'm just tired of being the 'good girl.' I want those lonely nights to turn into something else. I want the attention from men just as much as the next woman and I know I can't find it in my own house. I have to get my butt out there and ask for it. I'm not a slut or a player…I just want them to know I'm here.

    I don't want to be with somebody who would rather be with me than with nobody. I want to be with somebody who would rather be with me than with anybody.

    It’s not that easy to win over a girl’s heart. You can’t just look into her eyes and say ‘I love you’ and think she’ll instantly fall in love with you. You have to get to know her and show that you love her just the way she is. You have to be able to handle her when she’s mad, comfort her when she’s sad, and leave her be when she’s feeling independent. You don’t have to buy her the most expensive gifts all the time; as long as you mean everything you say and keep all the promises you make, you’ll be okay. So don’t rush things, take your time. and when you finally do tell her that you love her, make sure you truly mean it. Because chances are she needs another broken heart like you need a hole in the head.

    I usually don’t like thinking about the future. I mean let’s face it, you can’t predict what’s going
    to happen. But sometimes, the thing you didn’t expect is what you really wanted after all. Maybe
    the best thing to do is stop trying to figure out where you’re going &just enjoy where you’re at.

    I guess in the end, things seldom work out the way you expect. sometimes, fate is on your side.
    other times, well, you’ve kind of sealed your own fate. either way you have to trust that whatever’s
    supposed to happen, will happen.

    Sometimes in life when you get what you want, you end up missing what you left behind.

    There comes a time when every man has to make a choice. Whether it’s a professional choice… Or
    whether it’s a personal choice. In the end, it’s about integrity. &it’s about chasing after what you really
    want. Even if that means showing you both care a little. And sometimes… well, sometimes you just
    have to do what’s right for your friend. Even if it means sacrificing your own happiness. When it comes
    down to it, you just have to be proud of the decision you make.

    I guess it comes down to how we want to be seen by other people. Some people want to be seen
    as the rebel. Some people just want to be seen, period. Some people have limits on how far they’ll
    go to protect their image. For me, it was when I stopped worrying about how other people saw me
    that I finally started to look better

    Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love, but refuse to admit openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear - fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But one thing about human beings puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection, even if it kills them slowly within.

    "May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you’re wonderful, and don’t forget to make some art - write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself.”

    When we think of the past, it’s the beautiful things we pick out. We want to believe it was all like that.

    You say that the way I feel, it's all just chemicals in my brain. It's all just strange air in my atmosphere. It's all just new colors in my rivers. But you are my industry. You are my factory. You are my smoke stacks. You are my production line. You are my cheap sneakers. You are my fast food. And I'm a planet you once called home, that's nearly out of air.

    Dare I say I miss him? I do. I miss him. I still see him in my dreams. They are nightmares mostly, but nightmares tinged with love. Such is the strangeness of the human heart.

    if you want to know where your heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders.

    I think it’s more interesting to see people who don’t feel appropriately. I relate to that, because sometimes I don’t feel anything at all for things I’m supposed to, and other times I feel too much. It’s not always like it is in the movies.

    All the books you started reading, all the boys you started seeing, every half completed sentiment that you always meant to say, gets stuck inside a memory, like a miracle unfinished and you only feel like going back to where there's no place to stay.

    "Still, as a recorder, the brain does a notoriously wretched job. Tragedies and humiliations seem to be etched most sharply while those we think we really need -- the name of the acquaintance, the time of the appointment, the location of the car keys -- have a habit of evaporating."

    "And if your plane fell out of the skies, who would you call with your last goodbyes? Should be so careful who we live out our lives so when we long for absolution, there'll no one on the line. Yeah, we gotta start lookin' at the hand of the time we've been given here; This is all we got and we gotta start pickin' it. Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'. Gotta live like we're dying. We only got 86-400 seconds in a day to turn it all around or throw it all away. We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say... Gotta live like we're dying."

    I realized I was falling in love and I didn’t like it. I’ve only got to look at you to see what love can do. It’s such a crap, pointless emotion. All that intensity, all that demanding, no one could voluntarily want to be in that sort of condition.




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Wednesday, 20 January 2010

  • Currently
    Gavin DeGraw
    By Gavin DeGraw
    She Holds A Key
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    she holds a key;

    when things go wrong, dont go with them

    You were the first nice guy I met after so many bad ones. And I didn’t know if you were the one or just the first good one, so I went out and met some more guys. Some of them were fine, but none of them were you.

    Is that a bulletproof vest? See, now that's so insulting. That's like saying I'm not smart enough to shoot you in the head.

    You’ll know her more by your questions than by her answers. Keep looking at her long enough. One day you might see someone you know.

    Some of the best things in life will happen to you by complete chance. So don't sit there trying to calculate happiness, because that is some bullshit. Just enjoy the ride, and be ready for anything.

    This is why you should never, ever, give your hopes up. This is why you should see the glass as half empty. So when the whole thing spills, you aren't as devastated.

    When I met you I thought I found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with… I was done. So all the boys and all the bars and all the obvious daddy issues.. who cared? Because I was done. You left me. You chose her. I’m all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke.

    sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you
    really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you’ll find it in
    a spouse &celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there’s also the chance that the one
    person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than
    you know yourself is the same person who’s been standing beside you all along.

    decision is a sharp knife that cuts clean and straight, while indecision is a dull one that leaves ragged edges behind.

    The unreal is more powerful than the real, because nothing is as perfect as you can
    imagine it. because its only intangible ideas, concepts, beliefs, fantasies that last.
    stone crumbles. wood rots. people, well, they die. but things as fragile as a thought,
    a dream, a legend, they can go on and on.

    "I thought our story was epic, you know, you and me. Spanning years and continents. Lives ruined, bloodshed. Epic. But summer's almost here, and we won't see each other at all. And then you leave town... and then it's over. I'm sorry about last summer. You know, if I could do it over..."
    --"Come on. Ruined lives? Bloodshed? You really think a relationship should be that hard?"
    "No one writes songs about the ones that come easy."

    you're wrapped up tight in mystery. you got me so fogged in that i can't even see. my friends say i'm caught up in fairytales and dreams and i confess with you it feels like make-believe cause you're a fantasy.

    The best thing though, in that museum, was that everything always stayed right where it was. Nobody'd move. You could go there a hundred thousand times, and that Eskimo would still just be finished catching those two fish, and the birds would still be on their way south. Nobody'd be different. The only thing that would be different would be you. Not that you'd be so much older or anything. You'd just be different, that's all. You'd have an overcoat on this time. Or you'd heard your mother and father having a terrific fight in the bathroom. You would be different in someway, I can't explain what I mean. And even if I could, I'm not sure I'd feel like it.

    They made a statue of us and put it on a mountain top. Now tourists come and stare at us, blow bubbles with their gum, take photographs have fun, have fun. They'll name a city after us, and later say it's all our fault.

    All the books you started reading, all the boys you started seeing, every half completed sentiment that you always meant to say, gets stuck inside a memory, like a miracle unfinished and you only feel like going back to where there's no place to stay.


    "In a way, it was sort of depressing, too, because you kept wondering what the hell would happen to all of them. When they got out of school and college, I mean. You figured most of them would probably marry dopey guys. Guys that always talk about how many miles they get to a gallon in their goddam cars. Guys that get sore and childish as hell if you beat them at golf, or even just some stupid game like ping-pong. Guys that are very mean. Guys that never read books. Guys that are very boring."

    I have so many things I want to tell you, but I need to keep reminding myself that it’s not the same anymore. That it’s not right for me to want you to be here for me 24/7 like last time. That I cannot keep burdening you with all my problems even though you’re still as nice to listen to my rants and comfort me. That basically we are not who we were back then. We’re not even we now. It’s just you and I. And I need to learn how to let you go, to live your own life and stop thinking of you.

    Love is the most dangerous craving of all, if you ask me. It turns us into people we aren’t. It makes us feel like hell and makes us walk on water. It ruins us for anything else.

    When you’re struggling with something, look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something, and to them it’s just as hard as what you’re going through.

    It is always easier to judge someone than to figure out what might have pushed him to the point where he might do something illegal or morally reprehensible, because he honestly believes he’ll be better off.

    Sometimes I think I am out of my league, and then sometimes I think I can dream. Sometimes I wish I could be the one fish that you choose out of all in the sea.

    Did you know she has 7 laughs? One when something really makes her laugh. One when she’s making plans. One when she is laughing out of politeness. One when she is uncomfortable. One when she is making fun of herself. One when she’s having fun with her friends. And one, when she is thinking about you.

    My heart is on my sleeve and that’s where it’ll stay until the day you’re brave enough to walk my way and tell me the things you were too stubborn to say.

    Have you ever had so much to say that your mouth closed up tight struggling to harness the nuclear force coalescing within your words? Have you ever had so many thoughts churning inside you that you didn’t dare let them escape in case they blew you wide open? Have you ever been so angry that you couldn’t look in the mirror for fear of finding the face of evil glaring back at you?
    don't do whatever you like-like whatever you do

    you can't depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus

    Man, I was thinking about unrequited love. I figure it’s best to just walk that shit off. Find someone else to be excited about. It’s like if you love ice cream but your ice cream man friend won’t give you any. Maybe he’s got a good reason. It cuts into profits. Who knows? But he likes you as a friend and wants to hang out anyway. It drives you crazy to hang out with that dude, even if he’s being reasonable from his point of view. So don’t hang out with him. What, you ONLY like ice cream? It’s ice cream or nothing? Don’t be an asshole. Learn to love donuts.

    Some people need a red carpet rolled out in front of them in order to walk forward into friendship. They can't see the tiny outstretched hands all around them, everywhere, like leaves on trees.

    I laughed and said, “Life is easy.” What I meant was, “Life is easy with you here, and when you leave, it will be hard again.”

    This pain, this dying, this is just normal. This is how life is. In fact, I realize, there never was an earthquake. Life is just this way, broken, and I am crazy for dreaming of something else.

    Are you angry? Punch a pillow. Was it satisfying? Not hardly. These days people are too angry for punching. What you might try is stabbing. Take an old pillow and lay it on the front lawn. Stab it with a big pointy knife. Again and again and again. Stab hard enough for the point of the knife to go into the ground. Stab until the pillow is gone and you are just stabbing the earth again and again, as if you want to kill it for continuing to spin, as if you are getting revenge for having to live on this planet day after day, alone.

    People tend to stick to their own size group because it's easier on the neck. Unless they are romantically involved, in which case the size difference is sexy. It means: I am willing to go the distance for you.

    Learn four new things every day: something about yourself, something about the people you love, something about the world, and something about a stranger

    She’s a pretty typical teenager. Angry, insecure, confused. i want to tell her that's all going to pass, but i don't want to lie to her.  -American Beauty

    She smokes like there's no tomorrow. She says it makes her feel alive. She drinks her wine like water because she feels dry inside. She drives her car like it's a bullet. She says that time is slipping away. She never thinks about her future. It's a million miles away.

    The truth was, I knew, after all those flat January days, that I deserved better. I deserved "I love yous" and kiwi fruits, and flowers, and warriors coming to my door, besotted with love. I deserved pictures of my face in a million expressions and the warmth of a baby's kick under my hand. I deserved to grow, and to change, and to become all the girls I could ever be in the course of my life, each one better than the last.

    The worst mistake you can make is to think you're alive when really you're asleep in life's waiting room.

    Be the type of girl who changes bad boys into good ones.  The type of girl who people can always look to for an example of how lives should be lived. Be the girl who people say "I wouldn't be who I am without her".  The type of girl who has a smile to share with anyone she passes.  The type of girl who people think is beautiful because of not only her looks, but her captivating heart.  Be the girl who shows the world that God loves not only her, but everyone else too.

    You think because he doesn't love you that you are worthless. You think that because he doesn't want you anymore that he is right -- that his judgement and opinion of you are correct. If he throws you out, then you are garbage. You think he belongs to you because you want to belong to him. Don't. It's a bad word, 'belong.' Especially when you put it with somebody you love. Love shouldn't be like that. Did you ever see the way the clouds love a mountain? They circle all around it; sometimes you can't even see the mountain for the clouds. But you know what? You go up top and what do you see? His head. The clouds never cover the head. His head pokes through, beacuse the clouds let him; they don't wrap him up. They let him keep his head up high, free, with nothing to hide him or bind him. You can't own a human being. You can't lose what you don't own. Suppose you did own him. Could you really love somebody who was absolutely nobody without you? You really want somebody like that? Somebody who falls apart when you walk out the door? You don't, do you? And neither does he. You're turning over your whole life to him. Your whole life, girl. And if it means so little to you that you can just give it away, hand it to him, then why should it mean any more to him? He can't value you more than you value yourself.— Toni Morrison

    Where are you now as I'm swimming through the stereo? I'm writing you a symphony of sound. Where are you now as I rearrange the songs again? This mix could burn a hole in anyone, but it was you I was thinking of.

    I read your letter, the one you left when you broke into my house, retracing every step you made and you said you meant it and there's a piece of me in every single second of every single day. But if it's true, then tell me how it got this way.

    So the roses lift their heads to catch a glimpse of my demise. You'll be throwing lies around like ocean waves throw down the tides and they are breaking on my shore. The rescue team won't save me now, I'm out too far.

    It's a thrill I can't shake, I know we've been writing a mistake but it's hard to erase the feelings I've drawn. I was caught in an awkward silence, broken down by the sound of your prelude that you played to open our symphony.

    Love is a gamble always, but waiting won't change the dice. Either you roll them or you lose your turn.

    "Life is a tragedy for those who feel, but a comedy to those who think."

    The idea that you might end up in a job that doesn't allow you to be who you are, over the course of a lifetime, is still one of the most chilling nightmares to me. It's a good metaphor for fears I have about losing my soul in some accidental, mundane way. So, to me, these jobs that my characters have are very loaded. They immediately suggest a complex character to me, a woman who is, say, a secretary, but also a vigilante on behalf of her own soul.


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Monday, 11 January 2010

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    We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things
    By Jason Mraz
    If It Kills Me
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    i'll find a way to you if it kills me;

    the world bursts at the seams with people ready to tell you you're not good enough. on occasion, some may be correct. but do not do their work for them. seek any job; ask anyone out; pursue any goal. don't take it personally when they say no — they may not be smart enough to say yes.

    failure's hard, but success is far more dangerous. if you're successful at the wrong thing, the mix of praise and money and opportunity can lock you in forever.

    music can lift us out of depression or move us to tears - it is a remedy, a tonic, orange juice for the ear. but for man, music is even more - it can provide access, even when no medication can, to movement, to speech, to life. for us, music is not a luxury, but a necessity.

    I like to see people reunited, I like to see people run to each other, I like the kissing and the crying, I like the impatience, the stories that the mouth can't tell fast enough, the ears that aren't big enough, the eyes that can't take in all of the change, I like the hugging, the bringing together, the end of missing someone.

    My heart does not have a revolving door to it, and I'm not making any kind of exceptions for anyone. If you want to leave, I'm not stopping you, and don't expect me to chase after you. I've done that enough and it will never happen again. If you walk away from me then you just lost the best thing that’s ever happened to you.

    Back to the street, down to our feet. We're losing the feeling of feeling unique, do you know what I mean?

    I'm just a stranger, even to myself. A re-arranger of the proverbial bookshelf. Don't be a fool girl, tell him you love him. Don't be a fool girl, you're not above him.

    "And that was it. All this buildup to a great leap, and I didn't fall or fly. Instead I found myself back on the edge of the cliff, blinking, wondering if I'd ever jumped at all. It's not supposed to be like this."

    I'm going to walk away and it's up to you to say how far.

    If for one minute you think that you are better than a 16-year old girl in a Green Day t-shirt, you are sorely mistaken. Remember the first time you went to a show and saw your favorite band? You wore their t-shirt, and sang every word. You didn't know anything about scene politics, haircuts or what was cool. All you knew was that this music made you feel different from anyone you shared a locker with. Someone finally understood you. This is what music is about.

    it's one of those feelings. the ones where you get the good kind of goose bumps in 90 degree weather. you sit there thinking about him and you can't help but smile whenever you see him. he takes your breath away. you'd rather spend the rest of your life, sitting there with him than winning the lottery or becoming famous because when you're with him, you have everything.

    Sometimes it's hard to live when you know it ends in death. But at least sometimes you'll have blue skies. At least sometimes you'll have twilight. And of course you'll always have me.

    Time will create something that's the truth so it pierces through you, cuts me in two. It shows me why I lied to you with a part of me I'll never see that I'll be gone.

    Is it the red wire, or the blue wire? Just pick one and cut, it just doesn't matter anymore. Or did it ever? Because I could never control when the bomb would explode.

    May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art - write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself. -Neil Gaiman

    Did you know that the heart has no pain receptors? So the next time someone breaks your heart, move on. Your pain is just an illusion, a temporary psychological disturbance that you have to overcome. In short, it's all in the mind.

    So I remember your eyes that unique shade of brown
    while the blue eyes of mine they stay closed
    I kissed you goodbye at the end 109
    I choked as I watched the bus go

    Yes, I was infatuated with you. I am still. No one has ever heightened such a keen capacity of physical sensation in me. I cut you out because I couldn’t stand being a passing fancy. Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren’t having any of those.

    The dial tone reminds her that he's not around. It's a lonely sound, cause it's a long way down when your hopes are high as mountains.

    You are disenfranchised, your parents don't understand you. You like boys, they don't like you. You are smart but not smart enough. You are too fat. You are too thin. You have to get into college but you have to finish your 18 extracurricular activities first. Your best friend betrays you, your boyfriend cheats on you. Your parents get divorced. People offer you drugs/drinks. Maybe you take them, maybe you don't. People are mean to you. Again and again and again. When you come home from school, you sit in the bathroom and cry for an hour. Every day. With the door closed, you turn on the stereo. Someone is singing about problems just like yours. They're not commenting on them, not judging them, just echoing them, making them real, validating them. You sing along and your tears dry up. You switch on your computer. You're safe in your room. You control everything. You're alone. But you check your buddy list and know, you are anything but alone.

    I think we are all advised to keep on nodding terms with the people we used to be, whether we find them attractive company or not. Otherwise they turn up unannounced and surprise us, come hammering on the mind's door at 4 a.m. of a bad night and demand to know who deserted them, who betrayed them, who is going to make amends.

    What do I know about love? Not much— that’s the safe answer. Even when I think I have a grasp on it, something comes along to make me realize I don’t know anything at all. It’s just a concept to me. It’s the thing that all the songs are written about, the thing that makes smart people act stupidly. If I can make love a concept, it makes me a better observer. And it also leaves a place inside of me hollow. Sometimes I can actually feel it. To reach down inside that part— I wonder how it would feel, to touch a void. That nameless empty.

    too many people miss the silver lining because they're expecting gold

    I don't let my guard down. I built those walls up high, and they're not coming down anytime soon. Don't worry, you won't be crashing through them. You think you're special, you think that I'll let you in...well, you're wrong. Because no one is coming through, and I'm certainly not going out. I guess you could say I'm taking a break from feelings for a while.

    I didn't reply - I couldn't reply. I was scared that if I opened my mouth, my insides would spill out of it and leave the shell of my body lying on the floor, jaw still set in an agonizingly tight grimace, eyes wide open and not quite wet. I knew that sometimes, broken hearts didn't mend themselves.

    At the first second, when you came into being you join us in a strange world. At the second second you grow up slowly you stare at the universal in wonderment. At the third second you’re still too young you believe false dreams you’re guided the wrong ways. At your fourth second you’re lonely just like a stone you choose somebody to love forever. At the fifth second you fight against thousands even you are not alone nobody helps you. At the sixth second an invisible army strangles down your body you’re gripped by the hand of time. At the seventh second you die. We forget you.

    And the world's got me dizzy again. You'd think after 18 years I'd be used to the spin, but it only feels worse when I stay in one place. So I'm always pacing around or walking away.

    I wanted to stay on that porch with him until the sun shone bright on both of us, but I didn’t. I stood up and walked down the steps. I’d rather chase the sun than wait for it.

    The best thing though, in that museum, was that everything always stayed right where it was. Nobody’d move. You could go there a hundred thousand times, and that Eskimo would still just be finished catching those two fish, and the birds would still be on their way south. Nobody’d be different. The only thing that would be different would be you. Not that you’d be so much older or anything. You’d just be different, that’s all. You’d have an overcoat on this time. Or you’d heard your mother and father having a terrific fight in the bathroom. You would be different in someway, I can’t explain what I mean. And even if I could, I’m not sure I’d feel like it.

    "You are often disappointed by the realities of life: the shortcomings of others or yourself. Somehow you don't want to accept the imperfections of the world, a feeling that drives you constantly to try improve upon it. But, rather than be satisfied with your efforts, and those of others, you relentlessly push on, striving for greater accomplishments. You are often unsatisfied with the results. In short, you lack the perspective that would otherwise make it possible for you to enjoy life more fully, and to accept it as natural limitations."

    "i don't want to lose you." his voice almost a whisper. seeing his haggard expression, she took his hand and squeezed it, then reluctantly let it go. she could feel the tears again, and she fought them back. "but you don't want to keep me, either, do you?" to that, he had no response.



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